I really don't care for football. Just a random note. So while my family is watching the game, I'm also with them, but just doing other things. :) I got on Pinterest for the first time in months and I actually had a lot of fun with it. It's a nice break from Facebook. That gets old really fast.
So today was fast/testimony meeting. I was probably 10 millimeters away from getting up on the podium and pouring out my soul to my ward. While I was getting ready today I thought for sure I would, but no, it didn't happen. That burning feeling you get in your chest while you're sitting there in dead, awkward silence is enough to kill ya. Haha not really but seriously though, in the singles ward tis much different than the family home ward. It's extra quiet, for one. There's not really anyone that's super consistent with getting up there every month; it's pretty random. I even thought of what I was going to say too.
This week was a little different than most weeks. Instead of sunday school, me and my buddies all went to mission/temple prep class given by the bishop. The class is intended for people that are either engaged, getting engaged, or going on a mission. I didn't really fit too well into either of the categories, but I went anyway. I am getting pretty serious about serving a mission so I thought it'd be good for me to go.
It was. :)
We talked about the plan. I will say that I appreciated Blair's comment when he talked about his testimony. The fact that we can be sealed to our families forever. It made realize just exactly how much I miss my grandpa Dan. I miss Pa. *tears up slightly*. His birthday is coming up here pretty soon. I'm sure my Grammy is going to visit like she did on Christmas. I think I'll go with her.
Anyway I liked what the bishop had to say as we read the assigned versus. I was able to mark a few new ones and be reminded of some very good old ones. Needless to say, I've been thinking a lot about things. Mission and what it's going to take of me. I don't feel ready. Like, at all. But that's okay! I feel like I need to do a lot of things before I up and leave for a year and a half. I have to improve myself even more than I already have.
-Testimony-
Right now I'd like to take the time and say what I would have liked to in testimony meeting. This is in no particular order. The plan. None of anything would exist like it does had there been no plan. Which brings me to the next point, the fall of Adam.
"Adam fell, that men might be, and men are, that they might have joy." -2 Nephi 2:25.
Those versus where it talks about in the beginning, God made things spiritually before physically. That made lots of sense to me, seeing how we were spirits before we gained our physical bodies. The point being, I'm grateful for the fall because without it, there would be no reason for the Atonement. The Atonement saved (s) us. Life certainly wouldn't be how we know it had that not happened. Because of the Atonement, we can essentially save ourselves from our sins because we are able to repent and be forgiven. This in turn allows us to be worthy to go back home.
Home. With Father. With everyone that passed before.
I don't know about you, but I think it will be the neatest thing to meet those famous figures in history. Like all the statues of those in front of the centrum for say. How I'd like to meet madam Curie. The family I never knew and be reunited with those I did. I often think about exactly how that will be like. Never will we have to be separated from them ever again because we will all live as a big family all located in the same place. (Minus the lower kingdoms). Someday I hope to share my knowledge with those who are looking for it. Happiness will be a constant state. We'll be restored to our perfect selves with no temptations.
Anyway yeah, I have what I believe to be a strong testimony of the plan. It gives my life meaning and purpose. Makes me want to be better. I want more than anything to live my life knowing I did everything I wanted to and in turn have my (our) Father be proud of me. I miss Daddy. I know I lived with Him as did the rest of us. And He sent us here to be tested and prove ourselves. We were each given our tasks we were to accomplish while we were here on earth. I also hope I can find my companion who feels the same way. But that's another chapter I have yet to live.
Another note I want to write about is friendships/companions. I honestly and truly believe that God our Father influences our lives by putting those we meet to either:
1. Teach us something
2. Provide us with what we need
3. Help us
I'm proud to have had/will continue to have those friends of mine throughout all my life. You all mean the world to me. I don't tell people very much what they all mean to me mostly because I'm afraid that they won't be able to say the same in return. And sometimes I think I care too much. Believe me, I do. I want to personally thank my family, my closest friends, and probably most importantly, my Father for putting up with me. I'm kind of complicated and frustrating. I also have many good qualities, it just takes the right person to see that.
Thanks for reading this long post. I guess I had a lot on my mind I wanted to talk about.
Drink on it-Blake Shelton
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